Correction Fluid and Correction Tape

I keep forgetting to rely on Jesus for strength and comfort, dummy me. In my harshness towards myself there is a tape, or c.d. in my mind which continually plays the negative thoughts and emotions that go along with them. I think Jesus would want me to press "delete" or "skip" or "pause" or turn off the "repeat" button in order to make those negative thoughts and emotions stop.

"Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out." - Acts 3:19

Jesus wants me to repent so that my negative thoughts about myself and the emotions which go along with them can be "blotted out." Repentance has to do with changing my mind but that will also be transparent in the eventual change (for the better!) in my behavior.

"Or do you despise the riches of His goodness, forbearance, and longsuffering, not knowing that the goodness of God leads you to repentance?" - Romans 2:4

Part of God's goodness has been shown to me by the many random feathers he sent my way, in the hyper hummingbirds and hyper squirrel he sends to me and the beauty of nature which we have a better view of since we live out in the country.

I need to remember the goodness of God and also the many blessings that I have. Even though I am wired the way that I am, I have to know and believe in my heart that God knit me in my mother's womb this way on purpose after all, and in that there is also God's goodness. I quite often need reminding of that though, in order to realize the positive aspects of having ADHD.

I was created by God, and Pastor Ellen says "God doesn't make junk." When I fall into that bad habit of self-criticism, I am insulting God because he is my Maker.
I am not perfect (only Jesus is!) and my mind is too often used to beat myself up. "As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten. Therefore be zealous and repent." - Revelation 3:19

When I beat myself up with those "negative tapes or c.d.s" in my mind, I need to repent in order to blot out that sinful way of thinking about myself. I even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for My own sake; And I will not remember your sins." - Isaiah 43:25

When I chose to be baptized last September, I chose to turn to Jesus in faith even though I couldn't see him or hear him. I still can't see him or hear him but I am getting better at taking notice in the present moments rather than after the fact. "Practice makes perfect" is what mom used to often say about different things when I was growing up. "There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus." - Romans 8:1

"Sin shall not have dominion over you." - Romans 6:14 It will take much practice on my part along with daily repentance. However, with help from Jesus I will be "changed" by the blotting out of my sins. It's kind of like Jesus has correction fluid or correction tape!

God is the epitome of goodness!