Walking in Wisdom

He who trusts in himself is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom is kept safe. - Proverbs 28:26

There was no need to worry about walking at Relay for Life and potentially breaking down and openly crying in front of anyone over missing mom. Instead I had my "protective bubble" around me. That "bubble" is what protects me emotionally and it goes up automatically whenever I want to distance myself from whatever uncomfortable situation it is that I am facing.

It may not be the healthiest way to cope but it is the method I have used for so long that it has just become a bad habit. However, I did not walk my hour-long shift because I was feeling emotionally numb and really didn't want to even be there.

God's singing bird messenger of the night came to greet me AS SOON AS we got home from the Relay today. As I unloaded the van, God's special bird messenger rested in the tree directly above my van and sang her heart out to me.

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me." - John 14:1

I imagine she was probably scolding me while singing "I TOLD you not to be anxious." "Allow yourself to be sad and mourn." "Just give it over to God with trust." "Stop trying to be so controlling." "Why are you being so stubborn?" "Don't be a fool and trust in yourself."

This singing bird messenger with the beautiful chirps was sent to me from God and she wants me to believe in my heart and remember....When I am afraid, I will trust in you. - Psalm 56:3